I used to have lots of issues with allergies in the past, then I read somewhere that sometimes people with lots of allergies also have lots of stress and maybe the allergies are just physical manifestations of stress. It was written with all kinds of conditionals and whatnot so as to not offend those with real (or deeply realistic) allergies. So imagine I’m writing it the same way. Imagine I’m saying everyone has real allergies except me.
So yeah, once I read about the psychosomatic allergies I took it seriously and mind over matter took over and I talked myself out of my allergies proving that they were in fact psychosomatic.
Now part of my issue is that ever since this worked for me, I try to convince myself that all my health problems are probably psychosomatic. Interestingly, it’s one of the reasons why I took so long to seek medical attention for my depression. I just figured I was being a big baby and it would pass. Actually, you’d be surprised at how often I heard some refiguring of that statement from friends of mine but whatever.
Anyway, allergies. Yeah. For 3 weeks now my nose is gunny, my eyes itch and run, I’m tired and I have crazy mad scientist mucous. I refused to even acknowledge that this was happening. This was not happening. Not at all. My nose does not itch, my eyes are not gooey, I do not feel like crap.
All I could find to take at work was some sort of generic cold pills. The decongestant helped but not really. I feel like crap. I need to take medicine for this, but if I take medicine then I am admitting that I have a problem and then it’s all “is it real or is it psychosomatic? is this runny nose real or just a manifestation of the stress that I hate dealing with?”
I’m wondering if I can use this to get another burrito out of David. He bought me one last night (chili verde sin cebollas from Pineda).