grumble grumble

I have been working on a crochet motif for a week now (a motif is kinda like a doily, but made of yarn, not thread and usually combined with other motifs for a blanket or sewn onto things as decoration). Thing is, as I work on this thing my stictches become cleaner and my tension tighter and the individual petals or spokes of this thing (a lazy wheel motif) become smaller.
I have ripped this thing out and re-started it 4 times now. Part of me wants to move on to my next project (a scarf) but part of me wants to get this right. I’m not a perfectionist by any stretch of the imagination, I often find little mistakes in my work and keep them there as I think they make the piece more personal.
But I want to be able to do this right. Maintaining consistent tension in a piece is really important, especially if I decide to make a sweater for someone.
The other frustration is that i make things all the time and i always forget to take pictures of what I made. I produced a bunch of scarves for christmas and gave them all away before I thought to take pictures. Dammit. Hell, I was going through a pattern book and saw a pattern for a baby blanket that i made once and for the life of me i could not remember who I gave it to. So, if you ever received a seafoam or minty green ripple pattern baby blanket from me, let me know.