Woo, yeah so it’s been busy busy, time for the patented (and highly fascinating) bulleted list…
* Yeah, the rumours are true. His name is David.
* Going to New Orleans for the week after Christmas. Looking forward to good food, the aquarium, warm weather, all that good stuff.
* You can’t use an iPod with gloves on. I didn’t know this. Something about making a circuit with the buttons, you need fleshy contact. On very cold mornings it is not uncommon to see me licking the buttons on my iPod.
* I did not leave the house this weekend. I went out briefly so the dog could pee and I could smoke but I went nowhere. Friday night I relaxed in a bubble bath with a bottle of wine while I waited for the boy. Saturday i made rack of lamb for dinner with the boy and my hairdresser. Sunday was all about chilling and watching movies. No need to leave. Excellent.
* People are still telling me I look like I’ve lost weight, i still maintain that without evidence of a massive tumor or tapeworm it can’t be possible.
* Ghengis is being boarded for the first time (no, not ‘boarded by aliens’ but in a kennel). He’s at that age where he’s all puppy craziness and he’s full size and he is without adult dog control. He’ll be staying at a pretty nice kennel for the week I am in New Orleans. This will take the pressure off my dad to watch him.
* I need to finish Christmas shopping. Better hope you have an amazon wishlist because I’m too damned busy to care.
* Speaking of Christmas, this is the first Christmas in a long time without any decorations and I’m pretty okay with that. I was never much of a Christmas person, I prefer Thanksgiving to all other holidays, but I did the Christmas thing every year and it was kind of fun. In the ‘Official Division of Community Property’ I let Jen take the Christmas stuff as it was definitely more her thing than mine. No tree, no ornaments, no decorations and I’m actually pretty happy with that. I think I’ll take a couple years off Christmas and see what happens. Sadly, this DOES mean that I’m not sending out Christmas cards this year. So if you normally got a card from me, you probably won’t this year. It’s not that I don’t care, but…you know.
* Saw Garden State last night. Not a bad movie, felt like if he had waited 5 years to write it and make it the movie would have felt a little more cohesive. I was struck at the end by the falling in love bit. How can you fall in love with someone in 4 days? I’ll admit that i tend to be more cynic than romantic, but still, 4 days is an awful short time, that’s hardly love.
* I’ve said it before and I will say it again, I love my hairdresser with all the dirtiness in the world. When I say, “I’m thinking of going with blue next time” he immediately describes how we will do icy blue hair with dark blue highlights. Love him.
* I can not for the life of me ever remember my log in names or passwords for my credit card’s websites so i can pay them online. Every account I have requires 4 or 5 attempts with various combinations of log ins and passwords. The problem with (or the saving grace depending on how you look at it) bank and credit card sites is that they have slightly more stringent requirements for log in names and passwords. I can’t just use my standard log ins because I need to have passwords be longer than usual and I have to include a number in there somewhere. I know, I do appreciate that it is harder to log in to than say your standard internet forum, but still…I’m not smart enough to remember this shit!
until next time, folks. I hope to come up with something more interesting. I have photos that need to be posted, I’ll try to get those up here.
Monthly Archives: December 2004
Self Control
It’s freaking cold in my office but the guy in charge of the heat is on vacation leaving the guy in my department that i despise more than anyone else (here at work at least). He and i have verbally tangled so many times in the last couple days that I can not call him up because it will mean he will have to actually come into my office and I will have to look at him and try not to kill him.
The exchange would go like this…
Him: ooh is it too cold for the princess?
Me: Fuck you, you stupid fucking motherfucker get out of my office before I have you fucking dismembered and fed to pigs.
Stuff like that doesn’t look so good on your permanent record. Later interviews would go something like this…
Me: I have great interpersonal skills
Potential boss: before or after you threaten murder people?
so you see my dilemma.
I’ll bully out the cold.
Sweet Dreams
My lack of sleep this past week finally caught up with me. I got home at 7pm last night, ate a bit of ice cream and went to lay down while I contemplated what to make for dinner.
At 10:30 David called me. I’d napped for 3 hours. He came over and I got up for a couple hours, went back to bed and here it is, almost 10am and I’m STILL in bed, posting this.
I’ve got much to do today, so I’ll be up in a minute, but for now I just want to revel in my warm comfy bed and hug the puppy dog next to me.
To Walk
A few months ago a friend of mine was going through a break up. Things were not going well, she was very upset. I suggested to her that she go out and buy a pair of shoes, something that made her feel sexy. When the time came, and she would know when that time was, she was to put on those shoes and walk away from that relationship forever.
She took my advice, bought those shoes and it worked. The transformation in her was amazing.
A few weeks ago she popped up and asked me, “Heather, have you bought your shoes yet?”. D’oh! I’d forgotten to buy my shoes. I tasked Owen to join me on this shopping mission, to help me pick out my shoes. We went to Nordstrom (because if you want to buy something symbolic and you want the best service, this is where you go). I tried on a few pairs and settled on my shoes. Cheaper than I expected by a long shot, too.
These shoes symbolize independence to me and I will think of that every time I put them on. As I was pondering what this new found independence meant, how my life would change as I embraced it more and more every day. Every situation that I came up with had the same feel to it. For me, independence boiled down to one thing, summed up in a Mike Doughty line…
Finally, I don’t mind, I’m not as smart as you require
I’ll spend my time taking the longer way to get somewhere because I don’t know the shortcut, my clothes probably won’t match as well as before, things that I do won’t be as efficient, my walls will be decorated with things that I like, even if they don’t all go together. These things will happen and I will make foolish decisions but they will be mine to make and though, to the outside observer, they will seem dumb, I will own them as mine completely.
I’m a silly little person, for the first time in my life I’m making decisions by myself. It scares me not to have the input of someone more logical, someone smarter than me, but I’ll find a way to do this and I’ll wear my shoes while I’m doing it.
Right Now
too much to think about right now so many things to deal with. here’s my list…
* Chinasaurs kick ass!!
* Not sleeping sucks
* Snow sucks
* Homemade sausage pizza kicks ass
* House not selling sucks
* Trying to decide on travel plans for winter break kicks ass!
There’s more, there’s so much more going on but I don’t have the energy or inclination to write right now. later.