Just got back from urgent care. Damn. I have a ‘particularly aggressive’ strep infection. The doctor was worried about he getting some sort of fucked up abcess on my tonsil and wanted to admit me to the hospital. I talked him out of it and promised to take the pills.
I’m kind of stupid. Taking pills when your right tonsil looks like Salvadore Dali’s golf ball isn’t just hard work, it’s torure. I had to take 2 steroid pills, 1 giant antibiotic, 1 giant pain killer. All of these things are to be taken on a full belly as they will upset your belly. It hurts so fucking much to eat, i barely downed the little hash brown i cooked up. I took my pills, whimpering the whole time.
Twenty minutes later, cue me running to the bathroom to throw it all up. I have to go do the whole process over now, try to eat, swallow the pills only this time I dont want to throw up, but I also know how much it hurts to take these pills. I’m avoiding.
Update…
Managed to eat Malt-o-Meal and that was enough to keep the pills down. Tried to nap, but Ghengis decided he needed to pee every 20 minutes. Highlight was when Alan brought me ice cream after work. Please click the link, go to his website and leave comments telling him to update more often.
my mind is all wandering stupid on painkillers (PainKillaZ yo!). gonna put my head down.

1/2 gallon Tropicana Immunity Defense orange juice
1 can chicken and wild rice soup
1 can chicken potato soup
1 box sugar free popsicles
1 box Tylenol sinus, cold and flu severe congestion formula, daytime
1 box Robitussin cold and flu, nighttime
1 box Emer-gen-c vitamin C supplement
1 box Frosty Paws ice cream for dogs
What does this tell you? I’m sick and I’m going to try to bribe the dog to give me peace with ice cream.

I went through this a couple months ago and I’m doing it again. An interesting issue/question/thing to consider has popped up in the last couple days and I need to make a decision. It’s a very emotional decision and could really change the course of my near-future plans.
What’s interesting is that once again I have posed the quandary to some trusted friends to get their advice and each friend has given me solid advice and a good perspective but each person gave me completely different advice. No consensus was reached. I’ve written out a very detailed pro-con list and i guess I’ll be working on that for a while.
I’m a Gemini, in every profile of Gemini’s it says that we have problems making decisions because we always see the validity of both sides of any argument. This is true here, I can see the benefit of going ahead and saying ‘yes’, but also I don’t want to change my plans. And to be perfectly honest, saying yes is fucking scarier than moving away. So part of me is chickenshit, part of me is trying to be logical, part of me very much wants to do this as the benefits, if it works out, would be incredibly joyous.
If I decide to go with it, you’ll know as I suddenly won’t be leaving the state. If i decide to let it go, then things will continue on their predetermined course.
It’s days like today that I wish I was a robot, life would be so much easier.

It’s ‘belly’ not ‘tummy’. This is why I am the winner and you are the loser.
Get it right.
h