I had a rough week this past week. Had to deal with a betrayal of friendship and a betrayal of confidences. These were 2 separate but intertwined incidences. I knew they were going to happen, I should not have been surprised, but they happened, i was surprised. Mostly, I was left feeling like a fool.
I felt defeated, really. There is no other way to describe how I felt. I’d been dealing with so much, I’d been trying so hard to get some semblance of ‘normal’ and ‘control’ in my life and then I get hit with something that makes me want to just sit down and give up. And, yeah, I did that for a couple days. It was nice.
So, anyway, yeah, the armor’s worn a bit thin in places, I’m a bit more reactionary than I used to be. In some ways I have to be. I can’t keep putting forth effort for people who don’t appreciate or need what I have to offer.
And certainly, it’s important to sheild myself completely from those who would take a sensitive issue and use it to hurt me.
On the other hand, the one far far away from this hand, there have been some bright highlights in my week.
First off, as was posted earlier, I got me a puppy! I’m really very pleased with him. He was born on 1/31 and is 12 weeks old. We’ve started puppy kindergarten and already I’ve taught him ‘sit’ and ‘beg’. We’re still working on the housebreaking, but he’s coming along nicely. He’s a dachshund and shar-pei mix, and the characteristics and personality traits are really evident. It’s a lot of work to have a new puppy, but definitely worth it. Pictures and amusing anecdotes will be posted with tiring regularity.
Secondly, I got home today to find a package from my friend, Mark. He made a mix cd of all the music we listened to on my trip out there to DC over new years. It’s titled “Soundtrack to Heather” and features a picture of me (blick) standing in front of a hippo (hooray!!). It’s not the music that makes me happy, it’s the thoughtfulness of the gift that makes me so happy. Along with Soundtrack to Heather was the Mike Doughty cd “Rockity Roll” which for some reason I don’t own yet (bad fan!!). So, ladies, there’s a remarkably cute, shy, single guy in DC. He’s thoughtful, sweet and funny. He’ll sing you songs, take you to see the hippos, make you cd’s and he is surprisingly strong. Cute ass, too.
What else is going on? The sun came back. It is spring once again. The garden is sprouting bulbs like mad! And Ghengis is doing what he can to keep things fertilized. Good boy, Ghengis!!
Yeah, I’m done rambling. If I posted more often, then posts like these would not be necessary. I’m working on it! I promise more pictures of the puppy. If I don’t post them, email me and bug me!