Saturday was that kind of day where chilling in the tub with the boy and burning through your library books are your highlights. It was incredibly realaxing, exactly what I needed.
but also…..
1) I took this recipe and made it, but instead of using it as an enchilada sauce I threw the pureed result in a big pot, added a large can of hominy (not to be confused with the GIANT can i could also buy), diced tomatoes, kidney beans, black beans and pigeon peas. I thinned it out just a bit and added a touch of brown sugar. Cooked it up into a spicy chili like stew. To my bowl I added chopped pork from the roast I’d made a couple nights earlier. Filling and delicious.
2) In a lazy mode, not feeling like making dinner the other night, David and I prepped some italian kale. Then I sauteed garlic in oil over med-low heat until just golden, added the kale. Sauteed, added a can of diced tomatoes, Penzy’s pasta sprinkle and cooked down some of the liquid. Dumped in cooked pasta. Sometimes the lazy meals end up being the tastiest.
3) This morning I got up and made banana pancakes, served them with home made red squirrel sauce (that I canned myself). Red squirrel is stawberry ginger syrup, sweet, tangy, fruity and sharp. I love it. It was delicious on the pancakes.
4) I’ve started crocheting lace edgings for pillow cases and table cloths. If things work out, everything will go into a christmas box and that box will fill up over the year and people will get presents. Sadly, last year, my plan to make stuffed animals and dolls for all the kids I know kind of got squashed by depression and Ghengis dying. This year, I’m hoping to be more determined about staying on track.
5) I made 3 purses in 5 days and gave them away. I’ll try to get photos posted soon. I’m still on David’s computer and he doesn’t have Photoshop so my photo editing abilities are limited. One purse went to my Auntie Sue, the other two went to a set of cousins. I had to be careful, everyone wanted to steal Auntie Sue’s purse. I was pretty happy with it and would make another for anyone willing to pay for the materials (it’s Japanese wool, I mean, seriously, that shit ain’t cheap).
6) dog are good and sweet and fun to play with. Chester is learning to be my buddy. I definitely need another dog-buddy.
Monthly Archives: January 2007
who are you freaks, anyway?
Here we go again, you freaks! Time to see what your thought process is before you show up here. December was busy, many more search terms used.
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- As always, Velvet Cerebellum leads out the list. Yeah, that makes sense.
- analworld is a popular bet, it’s almost always there. It makes me feel good to know that my mom frequents a website also browsed by people looking for the best in anal entertainment.
- “gilbert easyasphosting”. Okay, this one fills me with much joy and happiness, more than most of them. If you recall, I struggled for nigh on 3000 hours trying to make Movable Type work on my previous web host’s servers. ‘Gilbert’, one of the falsely name wads from tech ‘support’ in India sent me the fucking microsoft kb article defining the problem and then helpfully suggested that the only way to fix the problem was to contact my network administrator. When I pointed out to ‘Gilbert’ that he sent me a solution that told me to contact sim for support he said “I doubt at the installation part of you”. Fucker. At least I know someone else is having issues with him or one of his drone replacements.
(as a sidenote, I still recommend LivingDot for your hosting needs. All the tech support is in the US, they speak real English and I have never ever waited more than a few minutes for an email response to any tech question, no matter how retarded.) - Stupid Mortals? YEAH!!! Of course a search for Stupid Mortals would send you here and of course all of your Stupid Mortal needs would be met by my website! Need Stupid Mortals? Come to the velvet Cerebellum!
- Removing vomit smell from leather seats? yeah, I’ll accept that. Chester did vomit all over the leather of my car.
- Roller derby girl upskirts? FUCK YEAH
- Off the chain ass 07!!!!! That’s right aaaaw…what?
- Couple things in there about recipes that i’ve made. That’s cool.
- Vagina Velvet….upholstering a sofa near you
- pound vagina. Once again, something I wrote was taken out of context. It’s not “pound vagina” like a command, it’s “100 pound vagina” like my coworker.
- and my personal favorite this month…Nurse Humping. I had to take off my pants when I read that, I was so excited. Nurse Humping, on my site. Scorching hot.
you people have problems. Deep and serious problems. I’m just glad I provide the outlet for you.
permission
A few weeks ago i found myself battling wave after wave of grief. I felt like I was wading hip deep upriver. It was too much to deal with. a Large portion of my issue came from the misbegotten idea that at 6 weeks I should somehow be done grieving.
I don’t know why I decided this, but it was there, beating me up. My grief felt foolish and selfish. I worried that the only reason why i was grieving was because I wanted him back, not because he might want his life back. I second guess myself all the time. I deconstruct my motives and look upon myself with great suspicion.
People told me it was okay to grieve, but I figured they were saying it because that’s what you say. Finally, I just stopped talking about it because I didn’t want to be that mopey, burdensome friend. You know, that friend that only sucks the life out of you and never gives? yeah, I hate that person too. I bottled up the grief and let it out when I was showering or driving or hiding in the basement. Still, it was more than I could handle.
Then I went to my appointment with my psychiatrist to adjust my meds (the story of the psychiatrist and the meds is a whole different post for later). I told her that I felt my meds weren’t working because I couldn’t get over Ghengis. Even after 6 weeks the pain was still amazingly raw.
She told me it was okay. She told me I could expect to feel pain and grief for a year or even 2. She gave me the permission I needed to feel the pain and like that it was like a burden lifted. I don’t know why I needed to hear it from her and not my friends, but that’s what it took.
It still hurts, good lord it hurts, but it doesn’t hurt quite as bad.
And while we are on the subject, please send good thoughts to Dena and Levi. They lost their beloved Bela before Christmas. Bela was a beautiful dog, he was Dena’s solid ground for years. He was smart and loyal and fun. He even liked Ghengis.
Why do we do it? Why do we bring pets into our lives knowing that they will die before us? I don’t know, really, but I know that I will never stop having pets. I know that for as much as it hurt to lose Ghengis, my most beloved of pets, it would be even worse to not have had him at all.
hello 2007
and today I say happy new year from us to you!
I hope your year is as bright and happy as I know mine will be.
It’s after 2 in the afternoon, I’m still in my robe, I’m trying to work the beer and champaigne out of my system and I’m eating Special Lady Breakfast Surprise (frozen blueberries covered in strawberry yogurt with toasted almonds and 5 grain cereal on top, slathered in honey) to make me feel better. It’s as good a way as any to ring in a new year.
Perhaps now I will go find me some black eyed peas!