To Heal

Today is my last day before I go back to work. Strangely I am really looking forward to going back. I miss it, I miss having structure in my day, I miss talking to different people.
Today I slept late and got nutty on the quality of my dreams. I love zoloft dreams, it’s like the best benefit of being on this pill. I’ll be sad to let them go when I finally get around to finding a better pill. Today, I also cooked and knitted.
My hand is getting better and more useful, though I do use it more often than I should and every night as I go to bed it aches, but I don’t mind. Currently, it is still in worse shape than pre-surgery, but I know it will get better.
Today I cooked because I missed cooking. I cooked like a mad woman sentenced to a lifetime without pans! It started last night when I made the perennial favorite snack treat “Bear Turds” (oatmeal, cocoa, peanut butter, sugar, butter unbaked cookies). Then today I made a dense porridge for maddie consisting of chicken thighs, carrots and rice cooked completely to death. It smells great but is completely bland.
She loved it. I hope it helps her get better. I know it made me feel better to be able to do something for her.
For dinner I made this:
1 head roasted garlic, skinned and mashed
2 thinly sliced green onions
1/4 cup basil cut in a fine chiffonade
1 good handful parsley rough chopped
1/4 chopped canned artichoke hearts
1 14 ounce can Muir Glen fire roasted crushed tomatoes
1 15.8 ounce can great northern beans rinsed and drained
S&P to taste
1 tube ready made polenta sliced to 1/4 inch slices and fried to crispy edges.
saute garlic and onions in a bit of olive oil until they start to brown a bit. Add tomatoes. Stir. Add everything else and maybe a bit of water. simmer for 20 minutes. Serve over polenta.
It was awesomely good. I loved it, David loved it. My soul loved it.
Then I made a wheatberry salad with wheatberries, green onion, grapes, fried tofu, carrots, parsley, tamari almonds, some other stuff and a raspeberry vinaigrette. That will be for lunches. I felt more productive than I have in weeks.