Things Change

My girlfriend and I have been friends for 15 years and lovers for ten. There have been good times and bad times, mostly more good than bad.
Since the beginning of our relationship there have been 2 fundamental issues. One was mine, the other was hers. Over the years we had twisted and turned and done what we could to deal with these two issues. Ultimately, we’ve had to accept that these two things were never going to change, they were intrinsic parts of the other’s personality and they were precluding the other from having her needs met.
This weekend, our relationship fell under the weight of these issues. We have decided amiably and mutually that we can no longer continue on as lovers and still be friends. This was not a decision made lightly or without many tears, but it was a decision made with a huge amount of love behind it.
We are still friends, and part of this change was in an effort to preserve our friendship which we cherish above all else. Though there have been tears, god so many tears have been shed this weekend, there has not been any anger and even now there is laughter and comfort.
I do not know what the future holds for us, but we are stepping in to it slowly.
I probably won’t be posting here for a while. As much this is an amiable decision, i still feel like my breastbone has been shattered, my heart has never been this heavy.
and i’m scared.